I am not a writer so if this is a bit rambling I apologize. I frequently turn posts on the blog into fluff pieces because it don't think anyone wants to listen to how I really feel. At times when I need to compile my feelings the most is when I least want to write things down, it is always too painful for me to review what I feel and think. Instead, I bottle things up and feel badly about myself, often then focusing my unhappiness on my physical appearance aka "bad body days". I pride myself on my body confidence especially after going through such a big life change with a large weight loss and exercise routine but when my chronic pain flairs and I get depressed I loose my body confidence all together. Even features that I love like my full lips, strong curvy legs, and large breasts turn into points of contention. I have worn a number of cute outfits lately but I just haven't been happy with the way photos turned out of them, many were just styles that don't photograph well like flowy maxis, but even with the ones that did I didn't like the way I looked. The outfit I wore today was one of those outfits at first, I knew everything went together but I didn't like the way they looked on me. I had originally had a wide white belt on with this ensemble but once I took it off I liked it a lot better, I still wasn't happy with it but I wore it out anyway. I'm glad I did because it felt and looked great, sometimes you have to smack yourself upside the head and ignore the nagging doubt.
These were taken on campus before an event at Hubby's office. This patch of pink and yellow flowers was too delightful to pass up. If this top looks a little familiar it is because I wore it on the first night of our Disney trip. The red belt I wore with it bled onto it leaving stains that I couldn't budge no matter how hard I tried, even bleach and color removers didn't make a dent. I bought the shirt new (which is a luxury for me) so I wasn't going to give up on it. I bought some Tulip brand dye and as a last attempt to save it I dyed it, I took a gamble and went with a hot pink. The dye worked wonders and I can only see the stains very close up and as Hubby pointed out no one will be looking at spots along the waistline when I wear this top ;) I wasn't sure I would have anything to wear with a hot pink top but as luck would have it, it matched this lovely batik skirt like it was made for it.
Hair Flower- eBay
Shirt- ModCloth sale, dyed by me
Skirt- Thrifted from The Other Side Vintage
Jellies- Secondhand from Poshmark
Purse- Betsey Johnson, secondhand from Poshmark
Lips- MAC, Miley Cyrus Viva Glam
Nails- Finger Paints in Pink Patina
Yes, that is a little bit of new ink peaking out from under my sleeve. I sold a bunch of old clothing on Poshmark so I could afford it. I'll get good pictures once it heals, right now it is a bit flaky and no one wants to see that. I did post a quick snap of it on Instagram after I got it.
|A girl is never to old to wear high-heeled glitter jellies|
Here's to a week of better self confidence.
Two of my good friends are getting married this week, I am so excited for them. They have so much love for each other and their joy is contagious. I can't wait to share the day with them (and eat lots of tacos at their reception, LOL, my friends rock).
Some Bunny Loves You!